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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

8/7/2007 Sunday
at night .. i told my mum .. 'i full le.. so i don't want go out eat' then my sis very busybody keep on say.. 'jie jie go bath go bath ,go bath now lah... wei go bath now lah' .. then i feel so irritating for hear so many times.. then .. say to her.. 'none of ur problem so u just quiet' then my mother scolding me le~ 'WAT U SAY TO UR SIS ?! NOW U GO BATH NOW ! JUST 1MINUTE I WILL FINISH U IF U DON'T GO BATH RIGHT NOW!'... so i go bath v a 4/5 bad mood.. after i bath out.. then suddenlly they say.. 'ah u come out le.. go out eat now ~'.. then i .. feel.. watever i say just now.. they can't hear? so i say.. 'y should i go?'.. my father rush to me n gave me a slap. he ask if i dare to again.. then i say again then i get 2nd slap.. then my father say.. ' u r so unrespect ur family!' then i reply him .. 'u tell me wat is respect?! does u all respect me b4? u all doesn't like me !watever i do is all WRONG!' then he gave me 3rd slap .. so i rush out.. n they go out like ntg happen.. my heart was break for this 3slap.. my face not pain.. just heart ... break from the minute he slap me..


11/7/2007 Monday
i yesterday cry until midnight.. so i don't get any sleep.. but.. when i wake.. up.. i just hope my handphone v me.. but .. the handphone.. been hide some where... so i feel.. so down.. n go to sleep n hope don't ever ever wake up again.. i sleep until 12pm+ then my mother come my room n scold le.. ltr.. my father come in.. he oso scold.. i feel.. i am just a doll.. y should.. i don't do watever my MASTER want..?watever they say i .. don't even hear.. i found my handphone.. i just put silent.. n reply some message.. n off it.. n bring to school... i at school.. just gave everyone a lie smile.. i can't even smile.. but i .. just act..then.. finish school.. i don't feel like going home... so i go bookstore.. n stay until 8pm.. when go home.. my grandma n mum scolding me.. but i just.. don't care about it.. i just go bath n take out a piece chocolate.. n eat.. done eat chocolate.. just study .. but i not even read the book at all.. just see then don't know wat i see.. 9.40pm+ my father back.. then he say.. 'wat u want me to do to u ? u don't even respect us.. so u say we don't respect u ? so u tell me.'.. my 1st word to my family for today.. 'then can u tell me.. ? hit me slap me beat me.. scold me is good for me ? n .. a 7age girl cause she is young so she can do watever she want even kill ppl oso can.. if like that...i oso don't hope to grow up when 7age.. just stay at 7age forever isn't good?' he say.. ntg...

12/7/2007 Tuesday
actually when the time i meet all of them.. i started open the door... which .. nv open a long time ago.. but just cause of my family.. i shut it.. again.. shut it very tight.. but when i remember them.. i wanted to open the ... door..
today my father .. talk alone to me.. at living room while all go sleep le.. he say.. '.. u always say we don't respect u.. don't like u .. don't care u.. if we don't like u we wouldn't hit u.. if we don't love u .. we wouldn't scold u.. if we don't respect u.. wat for we all always give u many things u want?.. u want new handphone.. i tried to buy for u.. u angry for i eat ur chocolate cake.. i go buy u a big chocolate cake the next day..u lost ur spect we buy u a new want.. u want eat any nice foods.. we does bring u go.. so .. isn't all this call don't respect u ?' .. i don't know wat to say.. just say ntg.. n smile.. to him..n go to my room... tomorrow morning he going to sh n johor for .. my uncle sick.. everyone trying to let's him recoved until like the normal him.. now my uncle attitude is like kid... like ppl to manja him n gave him desserts.. n watever..

13/7/2007 Wednesday
today my parents wouldn't be at home.. n i finish exam today.. today i gt .. KH,sivik,moral .. moral surely pass.. without reading.. kh.. aiks.. .. i lost 15marks le... i forgot gave teacher my folio.. on monday.. haiz... sivik.. not sure fail or pass... always nv study.. for get 60+ or 70+ or 80..

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