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Friday, July 27, 2007

yesterday i at school... moral time.. needgo library... then.. i forgot take something to do while moral class.. so i rush back to class n take .. ltr i rush down again.. then the turning round there... that .. bone... which near stomarch but connect to leg de... knock.. the corner,... some more. is leff side.. last time hurt b4 de.. have't full recoved.. now add another hurt...swt... shu wen say the monkey like.. me.. but i disbelief ... then ps ... oso say surely.. is making so confused loh... i prefer he like me than love me...aiks.. must forgot about it..
at night i go tuition .. then while tuition time .. i watch HOLES...so nice.. but finish le.. aiks... i borrow THE HOBBIT book from the tuition there.... i saw someone bring the harry potter.. book.. the most new de part... she buy from tesco.. RM65+ only... i want buy too... ;'( ...but can't .. aiks.. my brother take the thick thick de book knock my head... n say.. 'want buy harry potter book. study low low ,read story book high high so wat for buy haha' ..he hit me too pain.. so i takethe book bang hardly on his head then he use his fat hand.. hit my head twice ... so... i terrible dizzy after he hit me..
this few day i nv feel that feeling le.. but.. today suddenlly the feeling follow me again... aiks...

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Thursday, July 26, 2007

erm..yesterday i very bad luck.. but quite enjoy... b4 going to school.. the car FIGHT v me... then my leg .. blue-black... le... go to school...the 1st step to my place to line up... i nearly drop down... then go in class i eat some chips which PS buy de.. n she don't want.. she gave me 2pack.. ltr i cut one pack to eat then she go pass me another pack which is OPEN.. made me gonna force to eat 2packs.. i nv bring water to school oso.. made me very thirsty... then rehat time... i go buy mineral water.. then buy a soft plastic n cover break de mineral water.. while i eat the 3rd pack... is like want vomit loh.. so i eat half ltr all gave to guan tuck le .. i drink water then put the water on the table.. become drop on the table then the water pour out to my table n my bag... swt.. after that.. KH time.. cut the kayu.. then..while i cutting ,jie jing at bside n taking something pull up n down on the kayu.. so... my clothes ,in my clothes,hair all gt dirt... swt... then go home time.. i walk down the stair ... then drop ... lucky the gt flowerpot save me.. or else i will lay on the floor le...

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

since the day i told him wat happen to me.. n he say he will always be v me.. is like a door is always open for me to in.. i feel like.. i have find the cure of my SICK... whenever i saw all of them online.. is like having a little warm in my heart.. even now i at school.. is alone or been stick by the lady,Pei Si.. oso don't really mind.. cause i know gt a big door open for me when ever i feel tired..

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Friday, July 20, 2007

19/7/2007
... today is a bad luck day...at school.. argue v those.. who have NOT BRAIN..arthira just did once.. but don't know y they like to push everything to her is like mental problem ppl. i nv keep on follow ppl go everywhere if they nv call! well.. i does keep follow someone (shin) but y must say i am PS dog!.. if like that .. they r who's dog ? una's dog ? .. i does know i think something is walking STRAIGHT nv turn a little oso. but need to say until i am noob ? if noob.. they more noob than me.
today i buy 2piece chocolate cake.. wanted to cut it into 4piece n eat for 4days. now i know wat to say when .. i hate someone like a PIG like to talk crap just ATK them back badly.. they go tell the whole school i am wat wat wat.. i don't care ,their problem .. they want do wat is like a pig don't know how to do anything.

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

8/7/2007 Sunday
at night .. i told my mum .. 'i full le.. so i don't want go out eat' then my sis very busybody keep on say.. 'jie jie go bath go bath ,go bath now lah... wei go bath now lah' .. then i feel so irritating for hear so many times.. then .. say to her.. 'none of ur problem so u just quiet' then my mother scolding me le~ 'WAT U SAY TO UR SIS ?! NOW U GO BATH NOW ! JUST 1MINUTE I WILL FINISH U IF U DON'T GO BATH RIGHT NOW!'... so i go bath v a 4/5 bad mood.. after i bath out.. then suddenlly they say.. 'ah u come out le.. go out eat now ~'.. then i .. feel.. watever i say just now.. they can't hear? so i say.. 'y should i go?'.. my father rush to me n gave me a slap. he ask if i dare to again.. then i say again then i get 2nd slap.. then my father say.. ' u r so unrespect ur family!' then i reply him .. 'u tell me wat is respect?! does u all respect me b4? u all doesn't like me !watever i do is all WRONG!' then he gave me 3rd slap .. so i rush out.. n they go out like ntg happen.. my heart was break for this 3slap.. my face not pain.. just heart ... break from the minute he slap me..


11/7/2007 Monday
i yesterday cry until midnight.. so i don't get any sleep.. but.. when i wake.. up.. i just hope my handphone v me.. but .. the handphone.. been hide some where... so i feel.. so down.. n go to sleep n hope don't ever ever wake up again.. i sleep until 12pm+ then my mother come my room n scold le.. ltr.. my father come in.. he oso scold.. i feel.. i am just a doll.. y should.. i don't do watever my MASTER want..?watever they say i .. don't even hear.. i found my handphone.. i just put silent.. n reply some message.. n off it.. n bring to school... i at school.. just gave everyone a lie smile.. i can't even smile.. but i .. just act..then.. finish school.. i don't feel like going home... so i go bookstore.. n stay until 8pm.. when go home.. my grandma n mum scolding me.. but i just.. don't care about it.. i just go bath n take out a piece chocolate.. n eat.. done eat chocolate.. just study .. but i not even read the book at all.. just see then don't know wat i see.. 9.40pm+ my father back.. then he say.. 'wat u want me to do to u ? u don't even respect us.. so u say we don't respect u ? so u tell me.'.. my 1st word to my family for today.. 'then can u tell me.. ? hit me slap me beat me.. scold me is good for me ? n .. a 7age girl cause she is young so she can do watever she want even kill ppl oso can.. if like that...i oso don't hope to grow up when 7age.. just stay at 7age forever isn't good?' he say.. ntg...

12/7/2007 Tuesday
actually when the time i meet all of them.. i started open the door... which .. nv open a long time ago.. but just cause of my family.. i shut it.. again.. shut it very tight.. but when i remember them.. i wanted to open the ... door..
today my father .. talk alone to me.. at living room while all go sleep le.. he say.. '.. u always say we don't respect u.. don't like u .. don't care u.. if we don't like u we wouldn't hit u.. if we don't love u .. we wouldn't scold u.. if we don't respect u.. wat for we all always give u many things u want?.. u want new handphone.. i tried to buy for u.. u angry for i eat ur chocolate cake.. i go buy u a big chocolate cake the next day..u lost ur spect we buy u a new want.. u want eat any nice foods.. we does bring u go.. so .. isn't all this call don't respect u ?' .. i don't know wat to say.. just say ntg.. n smile.. to him..n go to my room... tomorrow morning he going to sh n johor for .. my uncle sick.. everyone trying to let's him recoved until like the normal him.. now my uncle attitude is like kid... like ppl to manja him n gave him desserts.. n watever..

13/7/2007 Wednesday
today my parents wouldn't be at home.. n i finish exam today.. today i gt .. KH,sivik,moral .. moral surely pass.. without reading.. kh.. aiks.. .. i lost 15marks le... i forgot gave teacher my folio.. on monday.. haiz... sivik.. not sure fail or pass... always nv study.. for get 60+ or 70+ or 80..

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Sunday, July 8, 2007

anyone who saw me... say i look weird right now... my brother say.. 'u killing urself? 1st fever 2nd nv sleep 3rd eat chocolate,durian n drink coke 4th nv eat breakfast,lunch,dinner 5th nv take a rest'
... wat am i doing ...?.. i killing myself..?... or..... lose to myself le...?... i will faint...? ...i will die..? i don't know... i know.. my view.. not clear... now is blur ... n... my mind now spinning......

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... i still awake.. nv sleep at all.. use le.. 33hours de energy still.. can awake.
my view.. blur blur de.. n ... my head was spinning .... maybe just cause fever.. whole body.. hot hot de.. like .. cooker rice.. but.. i still eat chocolate... i know wat i am doing.. i know wat i want to do.. but... .... ...
i wonder.. fever will die de ?..

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..i whole night can't sleep at all... i .. keep force .. myself to study.. but.. can't in mind at all.. i not in mood.. to study .. since yesterday until now le... i maybe could give my ownself a reason for y not in mood to study for today.. i... did something wrong ba.. but.. once u did ntg cannot return back to the situasi which ntg happen yet. watever things.. that i really wanted to say.. just... can't say out.. ..however.. the tear keep stuck .. if cry out maybe will be better.. but .. cry ntg can change ntg can settle.. i wonder.. how.. am i suppose to pass the exam...?.. nv study.. am i so clever..? .... i force.. myself.. still not use.. wat can help me...?.. ....

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Saturday, July 7, 2007

i wonder.. human gt how many type of human.. maybe i am alien.. maybe just not a 'maybe'.. maybe it is true..a alien.. watever she think oso different de.. watever she do oso different.. watever she want to do.. oso ..... will be different de..
not one will know wat i think ba..
.. when ever i chat v him.. feel his kind.. but... he made me feel.. i am a beban.. i don't want.. be so.. i think i wouldn't chat v him anymore.. maybe.. i shouldn't online.. maybe i should fail 1of my subjek.. to made me can't touch pc anymore.. ...i just try my best... if i really fail.. i wouldn't online anymore.
i keep feel the pain .. watch sad movie to cry out.. still so hurt.. wat happen to me...? ...is like millions.... things bite my heart... maybe she was right.. i am the one who was.. a ... shouldn't appear de 'aliens'...
if i fail.. then.. byebye everyone..

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Friday, July 6, 2007

'for 5/7/2007 de post'
today so happy... but .. i was sooooo tired.. n nearly every where of my body gt blue-black spore.. my arm, my both legs, my nose .. oso gt a blue-black spore...( pain..;'( ) i tot that 'monkey' shift school le.. then so sad when nv saw him at school ><.. but oh.. today i saw him!! baka donald duck.. lie ... he say.. 'ashman sudah pindah sekolah~'... must smatch the donald duck ! cook him! bake duck meat!... shu wen 'playgirl' sick or 'admire hipo' de sick get worse le~~.. keep on say.. 'ee..!hipo hen shuai hen shuai hen shuai' she say for nearly half hour~ i wonder ..did hipo really as 'shuai' as she mean or.. shuai = shuai(4th sound) jkjk.. but hipo does 'shuai' but .. i think not so worse about 'sooooo shuai'... my chocolate cake want finish le ><.. i must eat all! b4 they eat!.. (well... i know i very greedy....but i greedy in dessert or NICE foods only~!)

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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

my mum break her promise again.. i hope day feeling terrible down.. but oh.. i act i am very happy.. but .. my heart is like millions knife cutting it...i feeling like crying but oh..but i bite my lips hardy for don't let my tear drop out... then at night.. ken told me something so become 'sad + sad = very sad' so .. the tear .. keep on drop drop ... but after that feel better le ^^... i think i maybe fall in love to foods le~ ><... i love to eat dessert soo much.. but i prefer secret recipe de chocolate cake.. ><

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Sunday, July 1, 2007

..today i n my family go Palace dim sum.. after eat lunch.. we pass by secret recipe... i use my own money buy the cake... when go home i scare it melt le.. so put in let's it cold.. after 2hours.. my father taking the cake.. n walk up stair.. n stand bside me eating the cake... then i say..'my cake....' then my father say.. 'cannot eat isn't?'.. i nv reply anything.. but my heart is like break le while see him finish the cake... ltr i ask mum.. bring me go secret recipe buy the cake again.. she nv reply anything n playing her game... then at night i ask my mum can go now.. then my father say .. 'wat for buy for u ?this is just waste my money.y don't u buy urself?'.. i does buy myself.. n he mine.. i feel like crying.... when he say that.. i just smile smile n go bath.. but i go in toilet just cry only... then done crying only bath...

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